A New Life On My Continued Journey

To all of my friends and family, new and old: 

As most of you know, I have had a very rough journey throughout the first 40 years of my life and especially in the last 2 years. I have been purging my life of all of all things and people that are negative and not positive influences on my life. It is not an easy road to embark upon. I have to work hard with determination to stay positive, happy and stress free one small step at a time! I have grown a lot and discovered the better person that I want to be is inside of me just screaming to live life and I am here to say that I have been listening.  

I refuse to sit idle and give up. I am a fighter and a constant lifelong learner and I will reach and exceed my goals.

Some have noticed that I have also learned to allow my heart to heal and find new love. It was a long and hard decision to make, one that I am glad to have allowed in. I wasn't looking for it but, it found me. Lightning does strike twice in the same place after all and that seems to be the case where my heart is concerned. Some have inquired about my reason for being and looking so happy. It is a simple response and one that I gladly tell, the reason is the love that Matthew Bryniarski has chosen to give me and that I am just as happy to give him in return. 

I want to thank all of Matthew Bryniarski and my friends and family for welcoming Matthew and I into their lives and supporting us. It means a lot to both of us.  

If you are reading this and have not been added as a friend yet on Facebook or have not added Matthew yet, feel free to send a request and I will gladly accept. It is hard to get everyone at once. :)

I have been on one heck of a roller coaster in my life with all of its ups and downs, twist and turns and hard jolts. Life kept on going. It seems to have started to be reaching towards the stars now and the air up here is so refreshing and new. I thank whatever force that has guided Matthew and me to each other.

There comes a time in our lives when we have no control of our destinies and it is up to us to be open to just allowing destiny to take the reins and  lead us on our journey. The journey of the last 2 years has been the best despite the bumps. I have learned so much and grown in all of your presence. I thank all of you, old and new who have stood by me and are still standing next to me through it all. Life is a fabulous journey and I plan on continuing to allow it to blossom and teach me to listen to my own advice to always love, always live it to the fullest and to just be a better me.

 Love everyone always, Live life fully and Just be the best you that you can be!!

 Love,

T

Today a friend put the following as their FB status "Cancer is an asshole." I couldn't agree more. But, cancer taught me a few things about myself when I needed it the most. I found myself again. I learned to live my life and not just go through the motions of just existing. I had forgotten to enjoy, well, anything. I was literally at rock bottom. Strength came in the form of friends, family and strangers. I opened my heart and mind to everyone and learned to enjoy every minute that I had been given. As many of you know, I woke up after surgery not being able to use 3 of my 4 limbs. Yet, I never lost my strength to go on and now I can walk, slowly. I can use my right shoulder and have limited movement in my right hand. But, still I have my strength! The support that I receive from those in my life and the smile on my face and the faces of others, makes each day worth looking forward to and living it to the fullest. Take the time to look around you and realize all that you should be truly thankful for. Take anything for granted. Tell those that you love that you love them. Don't just assume that they know because maybe they too have forgotten to evaluate what really matters in their lives. If you surround yourself with negativity, then that is all you will produce.

Find yourselves. Find love and find your lost smiles. Live, Love and Be yourself always!!!

Luv,  T

For those of you that didn't get to see me last night, I wanted to share with you the top comments that I received about myself: I am strong, resilient, loving, radiate happiness both inside and out, that I am looking great! I want to say that I feel great both physically and mentally. Yes, I have pain but, I don't let it stop me from being me and enjoying the fact that I have a 2nd chance to make my life what I want it to be! I feel loved by all and am very happy with the direction that my life is going. I am happy inside and it grows every day. I am very happy that others can see it without me having to tell them. You are all a part of that happiness whether you are a long time friend or a new found one, thank you for being you! If you choose to not be a part of my happiness and my new direction, I will miss you greatly but, will still love you just the same. My soul is finally shining and I want you to shine too and enjoy the journey of discovering life, love and laughter. I know that it will not always be sunshine but, I know that I will make the best out of any storm that travels my way, because I have the love and the strength of a very large extended family of love! Live your lives, Love everyone and be happy and yourselves always!

Luv,
T

Today is a special day! You may be asking yourself, "How so?". today is a special day because we are alive to live it! 

Every second of every day is special. You may be having a hard time in your life right now but, you will be alright. You will make it. I know this to be true. Look at all that I have been through and I am still here loving life. No, my life isn't perfect or anywhere close to where I want it to be but, I am alive, healing and trying to work towards where I want my life to be. I do this second by second, minute by minute and hour by hour. I am making plans for my future, do I know if they will succeed? No. But I make them none the less. If we don't dream and we forget who we are and what we want, then we lose the most precious and special being on earth, ourselves! We are each necessary and needed to keep our world turning. Don't let anger, poverty, despair or loneliness keep you from finding yourself and reaching for the future.

You are never alone, because if you are reading this then you already have someone who loves you for you! You have me!

Live, Love and Be! 

Love Always,

 T  

Happy Easter

Happy Easter, Bunny Day and for some "Zombie Bunny" day!

Whatever you are celebrating it as, I hope that you enjoy some good times with your friends and family.

My world has been a tornado of emotions and events. I think things are starting to head in better directions. The future is never clear or sealed and we have to just take each day as it comes. We can however dream and plan for it. I have been making positive steps in the right direction and  getting rid of those things that are negative.

I am making new friends and reconnecting with ones that were wandering aimlessly looking for me in the abyss of cyberspace.

I am looking forward to creating new bonds this year and leaving more of the past where it belongs, in the past. The world has many possibilities and though I don't know where it all will lead. I am optimistic that it is looking good today! 

Yesterday, I had an appointment with the Disabilities Determination Doc and he was only 20 minutes into the exam when he declared that I was certainly not faking my disability. So, the medical and Social Security should be all squared away soon. Then I can focus on improving life a lot more.

A shout out to Port Angeles and new friends. This will be a better year for all of us. 

To Robert, good luck in Job Corps! Stay as long as you can and learn everything!

Big changes are on the horizon and I am ready for them. Since the whole tumor thing started, you have heard me say "bring it on" and "Live, Love, Be" and those are the words that get me through it and will carry me onto my next phase in this journey of life that I have discovered. Every day is a new beginning and it is what you chose to do with it that makes it a memory.

Today's blog is short but, I wanted to let you all know that I am still here when ya need me and that life is truly what you decide to make it.

Live life to the fullest, Love openly and always and Be true to yourself always!!!

Love,

T

My Daily Quotes - Happy St. Patty's Day

Just a few of my Facebook Daily Quotes. Each one has deep meaning to me and I wanted to share them with you.

Life is not perfect but we can at least strive for something great in our lives. I woke up today and that is a great thing. We take our lives for granted. It is good to have goals but, we also need to live in the moment and hold onto the joys that we do have in the here and now. We can't waste our lives living in the past, yesterday is the past and cannot be changed. Live today as if you may not have a tomorrow. A great friend helped me to understand that it is ok to be happy in this moment and to carry that happiness with me every day and no matter what happens in the future I have happiness and love in my heart always. I have a second chance to live life and to love life and I will cherish it and love everyone in it as if there will be no tomorrow..... Tina Yvonne Powers

 

Someday I'll tell the whole misguided story of the first 40 years! But, the next 40 will be the time for living and loving! We cannot forget our pasts and all that have wronged us but, we can forgive and learn so that we can live and enjoy the ride!

 

There are no differences, each of us is our own shade and the world would be dull if it were not for all of the different shades. It is your life and you are the one that needs to be true to yourself and do what makes you happy, not others!

 

You never walk alone when you have your friends around and even though they may be far and wide they are always with you in your heart. an original quote by me! Tina Powers McKinney

 

I need to learn to dance! Any kind of dancing will do. Of course I realize that I have to finish learning how to walk first. But, I want to dance wildly in the middle of a thunderstorm, in a club or around the house! I will learn to dance. Will you join me in the adventure?

 

I miss my home! I miss my friends, my family and the 'ville! I've been away too long and almost forgot where it all began. A lot has changed, yet my soul longs to be home again to where it all began. I miss the breeze coming off the ocean! When I would need to regroup my thoughts, my friend the ocean was always just moments away! I find myself needing to regroup my life and just maybe home is where I need to be! I can't just go right this moment but soon, maybe soon I will find my way home! Find my way back to what matters to me. Oh, tell me how I can make this be? I miss my home! I miss my friends, my family and the 'ville! Maybe home is where I belong! Back where it all began!